It’s been a year of quiet and I’m reminded of the calm that hovers over the earth after the winds of a mid-summer hurricane. I heave a deep spirit-sigh, breathing out stored up soul poison; releasing fear and bitterness. God-directed anger and doubt. I inhale God’s truth scribed by man, but formed by the mind of I Am.
I will restore the years the locusts have eaten.
My heart responds in rhythmic worship. Thank you, Lord. I believe.
Yet, a few years ago the howling winds sent me reeling. Loosing me in dark storms of despair, hopelessness, and helplessness. I questioned the Maker. Why, how, and when cluttered my heart and left little room for praise.
One evening, overwhelmed by the struggle, I knelt in prayer and begged God for the slightest hope of restoration. In that moment, His presence grew thick around me like a blanket just pulled from the warmth of a dryer. Comforted, my weeping slowed and then stopped.
I will restore the years the locusts have eaten.
The words weren’t audible, but my spirit understood. He saw me. Sitting in a Pile of Ashes? Finding Hope in Your Job Moments Share on X
In that moment, my faith was forever altered. I surrendered the pain. Surrendered the broken bits of my heart. Surrendered those I most loved into His care. Surrendered the woman I’d been for the one He was re-shaping to more clearly reflect His redemption, restoration, and reformation.
Opening arms wide to receive the fullness of grace, I cried out for more and waited expectantly. There were no sudden changes in the converging of difficult circumstances, great revelations of knowledge, or immediate answers to pray. But, God was working in the midst all along.
Through the challenge of it all, I thought often of Job–a man whose suffering is renowned. Everything Job ever esteemed or cared about was ripped from his life. Beloved children. Prosperity. Health. Until finally, Job sits in a pile of ashes, scraping boils from his flesh with sharp-edged pottery as his wife mocks his faith.
Job’s circumstances aren’t mine, but I do understand what it is to lose hope. To live with heartache and sadness. To question Him.
Why? When? How?
In the midst of those recent, painful years, I looked to Job for encouragement. While my faith danced on the edge of a thread, the man called ‘blameless’ turned from his overwhelming reality to humble submission and his relationship with the Father stretched larger than Job’s restored fortune.
Then Job replied to the LORD: I know that you can do all things; no purpose of yours can be thwarted. (Job 42:1)
You, too, may be living Job moments. If so, I’m truly sorry for your hurt and struggle, Friend. My own experience has taught me that God is in the business of restoration. Sitting in a Pile of Ashes? Finding Hope in Your Job Moments Share on XWon’t you surrender your brokenness to Him today?
You may not know why.
When may seem too long.
How may be unexpected.
But, our Who is greater than all of it and He is faithful to His children, true to His promises, and with you from beginning to end.
Spiritual Strategy to Help Navigate Through Job Moments
- Stop asking ‘why’, ‘when’, and ‘how’. You and I will likely never know the answers this side of heaven. This fallen world lends itself to heartache, but God is actively restoring now and will one day restore all.
- Turn to God when the enemy slings his fiery arrows your direction. Our emotions, doubts, and pain have a way of narrowing our perception and threatening that which we know to be true. Copy favorite Bible verses on notecards and hang them around your house where you’ll see them frequently (i.e. bathroom mirrors, refrigerator, etc.)
- Pray with expectation. Keep a journal of prayer requests and mark off those God has answered. This practice will remind us of His faithfulness.
“Pray with expectation.” Faith ignites our hope and pleases God. Good words to remember.
Hi Debbie. So often I’ve prayed with tentative expectation and, still, God is faithful.
YOu are absolutely right. we need to let go of our need to have our questions answered and hold on to the God who can sustain us no matter what. thanks for this post!
Hi Karen. Sometimes it’s so hard to let go of the questions. I believe someday we’ll understand enough to realize God loved of us through the hard times all along.
Tammy, thank you for sharing your powerful testimony. It is so full of hope and helps us know we are not alone!
I am thankful that God is with me through all the seasons of life with the good and the bad. We can’t always know the answers of why things happen, but we can know that God is the One we must trust and who has things under control.Thanks for this reminder to us. Blessings to you! I’m your neighbor at #TuneInThursday.
Visiting from Tune in Thursday. Such a beautiful post, one that meets every hurting heart. There is a song I knew years ago and this line comes to mind, “When you can’t see His hand, trust His heart.” Through all of life’s pain we just need to know His love is for us and that, yes, He truly does see us.Thank you for sharing this. Sweet Blessings to you!
Cheryl, I’ve never heard that song. What beautiful lyrics. Thanks for sharing as I need them right now. Blessings, Tammy
My prayer for you is that you can trust the amazing love of His heart through the difficult and find blessing in the intimacy that grows out of it. It is so hard when the way is dark, all the more reason why we need the Light in our lives. May He hold you in His love and comfort you with His compassion.
So good, Tammy. It’s hard when we’re in the eye of the storm, isn’t it? Hindsight is always a peach and we get to see how God was growing us and teaching us, but oh, it’s tough at the time! Thanks for sharing some practical ways to get through our Job moments. Stopping by from #RaRaLinkup 🙂
Hi Laura. Oh, yes! Just. So. Difficult. Blessings, Tammy